hurt.

u hurt me time and time again. y do u hab to do so? it hurts everytime when i realise wat have u been doing behind my back.. y? y? y? i asked myself if i did anything wrong.. i didnt.. u hurt me urself.. yet u does nt feel lyk tt.. i'm getting fustratrated and no one noe it.. can someone do take note???!!! arghh.. perphas u all noe i gt mood swings *sry* realli wanna to apologise to my twin.. she's been seeing all my mood swings and esp my class de ppl.. u did all the things.. u told me the things which my fren dey all neber sae at all.. u told me things tt does nt exist at all.. perphas u feel it's good for me, bt let me tell u.. all tis r nt ani where gd for me.. it may be great to noe someone is dere to care for u.. bt it realli hurts when u noe the whole story.. i felt living in my own fantasy when wif u.. everything seemed so fake nw.. *haix* i didnt want to sae anything much le.. everytime when i c u.. i feel so so sad.. i wonder to myself.. whether tis is the u which i realli noe so far.. i dunnoe if i still wan to trust u animore lehx.. i hope i can isolate myself frm u.. u hurt me too much le.. i wanna run away.. bt frm where? reality? i still have to gt back to reality one dae.. i will still undergo the pain i'm going thru.. i hope tis will end soon. fast enough. todae gt back the stupid e math paper.. feel lyk crying.. didnt expect tt marks.. thot can gt 35+ wan.. felt lyk such a failure.. math has neber been a problem wan.. nw it struck.. *sigh* perphas i'm juz overconfident liao.. the questions i thot correct wan lorr.. den all wrong.. hais.. my maths are dropping.. arghhh.. "help!" den todae.. gt the geo test.. study until lyk hell.. den all neber cum up.. wth sia..